Tarot Collectors Forum Home 
Home Search search Menu menu Not logged in - Login | Register
Tarot Collectors Forum > Main Discussion Area > Decks in Progress > Excerpts taken from the diary of a broken soul

Excerpts taken from the diary of a broken soul
 Moderated by: tarotcol Page:    1  2  3  Next Page Last Page  
New Topic Reply Printer Friendly
 Rating:  Rating
AuthorPost
 Posted: Fri Aug 29th, 2008 05:18 am
  PMQuoteReply
1st Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
:xDon't mind me, I'm just passing through... but while I'm here:qq How about I tell you some stories about a place called Jahanam?

 :ee heh.. heh... heh... C'mon, it'll be fun... trust me... :ww

 

:ceLots of Love from a Jahanamian,

Ash

Last edited on Sat Aug 30th, 2008 04:30 am by sacredashes

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Aug 29th, 2008 08:14 am
  PMQuoteReply
2nd Post
goldenweb
Member


Joined: Sat Nov 17th, 2007
Location: Brighton, United Kingdom
Posts: 980
Status: 
Offline
Hello Ash - welcome to TCF! Prepared to trust you, although slightly dubious about that 

 sacredashes wrote:heh.. heh... heh...

 

Pen :cool:

Last edited on Sun Aug 31st, 2008 06:57 am by goldenweb

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Aug 29th, 2008 10:10 am
  PMQuoteReply
3rd Post
AdamMcLean
Member


Joined: Wed Sep 5th, 2007
Location: Glasgow, United Kingdom
Posts: 1240
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote: Lots of Love from a Jahaniam,



I wonder if all collectors of Tarot, being lovers of images, are not already living in this realm of Hell, Jahanam, reserved for the idol worshippers. It might be instructive to discover how you see Jahanam to be structured.

I am sure Tarot collectors, with their love of the narrative of imagery would like to hear some stories about Jahanam.

Last edited on Fri Aug 29th, 2008 10:11 am by AdamMcLean

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Aug 30th, 2008 08:06 pm
  PMQuoteReply
4th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
2 of Cups turned to ashes on 02/11/2008

 

:mI know how to get there; I will show you the way... :ccbut getting out, that's a tricky one... I won't speak of the past, what's told before isn't worth repeating.. but what is to come... walk with me and we'll explore Jahanam together.

This was translated from a song written by someone with a wound in his heart. Written in another language, I am merely borrowing the essense of the lyrics to accompany this card. If love is what we wish it to be; we wouldn't be nursing a broken heart.



Last edited on Sun Nov 2nd, 2008 09:21 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Aug 30th, 2008 08:17 pm
  PMQuoteReply
5th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
goldenweb wrote: Hello Ash - welcome to TCF! Prepared to trust you, although slightly dubious about that 

Pen :cool:


Thank you Pen.. if you didn't already know, I am a fan of your work :bl 

AdamMcLean wrote: I am sure Tarot collectors, with their love of the narrative of imagery would like to hear some stories about Jahanam.


Dear Adam,

I'm glad you're okay with me bringing my stuff over. :hp

Back To Top

 Posted: Sun Aug 31st, 2008 07:06 am
  PMQuoteReply
6th Post
goldenweb
Member


Joined: Sat Nov 17th, 2007
Location: Brighton, United Kingdom
Posts: 980
Status: 
Offline
A lovely image and evocative lines Ash, looking forward to more. Your work is deliciously strange and original - I'd love to know more about the concept and how you began the creative process. And thanks for the compliment - I'm already quite a fan of yours too... :D  

Pen

Back To Top

 Posted: Mon Sep 1st, 2008 03:27 pm
  PMQuoteReply
7th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
goldenweb wrote: A lovely image and evocative lines Ash, looking forward to more. Your work is deliciously strange and original - I'd love to know more about the concept and how you began the creative process. And thanks for the compliment - I'm already quite a fan of yours too... :D  

Pen

Art for me started as form of journaling, I never went to art school and am quite convinced I would have flunked out since I cannot paint if my life depended on it. However, I can draw with pens and drawing itty bitty details into the picture is therapeutic for me so I spend hours filling them in freehand.

That probably explains the strange style, its something I developed over the years as I drew visions in my head on paper instead of writing them down.

This deck was an accident. I took my old drawings and related them to the tarot card structure from RWS but as I drew more pictures, the old ones got replaced by new ones. The characters in my head developed a life of their own. Its meditative in a way, holding these visions in my mind's eye.

Art is still my prefered journaling method; it's like a story waiting to unfold.

I am curious about your work too, Pen. I noticed you used ink for the Pen Tarot which is both intricate and beautiful. Is pencil and ink your prefered medium?


Ash

Last edited on Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 12:27 pm by sacredashes

Back To Top

 Posted: Mon Sep 1st, 2008 07:05 pm
  PMQuoteReply
8th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote: :xDon't mind me, I'm just passing through... but while I'm here:qq How about I tell you some stories about a place called Jahanam?



Welcome to TCF, Ash! I am so glad to see you here. :ce

I for one am very glad that you brought your work over to this forum, because you know I have been following your work closely. So yeah, I will walk with you :D.  I love the new card. And the poem/song just fits perfectly. :ro

Last edited on Mon Sep 1st, 2008 07:05 pm by truelighth

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 04:58 am
  PMQuoteReply
9th Post
6 Haunted Days
Member


Joined: Sun Dec 2nd, 2007
Location: USA
Posts: 174
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote: :xDon't mind me, I'm just passing through... but while I'm here:qq How about I tell you some stories about a place called Jahanam?

 :ee heh.. heh... heh... C'mon, it'll be fun... trust me... :ww

 

:ceLots of Love from a Jahanamian,

Ash

OK OK! Can I just say how AWESOME it is to see you over here?! I absolutely love your work, it means a lot to me personally. So happy to see you here. :)

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 05:19 am
  PMQuoteReply
10th Post
nicole
Member


Joined: Sun Jan 6th, 2008
Location: Chicagoland, Illinois USA
Posts: 779
Status: 
Offline
I just explored your website and look forward to watching the deck grow.. your cards are fascinating.

Nice to meet you :)

Nicole

PS- My ex husband is originally from Singapore .. don't miss him but I use miss his cooking :cl

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 06:36 am
  PMQuoteReply
11th Post
goldenweb
Member


Joined: Sat Nov 17th, 2007
Location: Brighton, United Kingdom
Posts: 980
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote:
I am curious about your work too, Pen. I noticed you used ink for the Pen Tarot which is both intricate and beautiful. Is pencil and ink your prefered medium?




I think I've tried just about every art medium over the years, including different printmaking methods, and had periods of working intensively with quite a few. I still love experimenting, stepping outside the comfort/skill zone to see what happens, and pen & ink is particularly challenging, because the potential to take the drawing too far and ruin it (especially when working in a fairly loose style) is ever-present.  

The Pen Tarot began with an almost casual drawing that seemed to have something special and different about it, and developed from there. The breakthrough moment came with the idea of hands and their expressiveness, and adding colour to a small but significant part of the image.

Pen  

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 10:54 am
  PMQuoteReply
12th Post
thorhammer
Member


Joined: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008
Location: Perth, Australia
Posts: 13
Status: 
Offline
Hi, Ash :D and hi all.

 

I'm a shameless "Diary" fan . . . followed Ash over here and very glad to see it still *kicking*.

 

So good to see you in action again.

 

\m/ Kat

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 06:10 pm
  PMQuoteReply
13th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
truelighth wrote: Welcome to TCF, Ash! I am so glad to see you here. :ce

I for one am very glad that you brought your work over to this forum, because you know I have been following your work closely. So yeah, I will walk with you :D.  I love the new card. And the poem/song just fits perfectly. :ro

truelighth, I'm so glad to know you'll be with me on this journey :ok It would be like old times.



thorhammer wrote:
Hi, Ash :D and hi all.

 

I'm a shameless "Diary" fan . . . followed Ash over here and very glad to see it still *kicking*.

 

So good to see you in action again.

 

m/ Kat

:bl  Kat, you've been a constant companion during this process... I'm glad you accepted the invite.

 

6 Haunted Days wrote: OK OK! Can I just say how AWESOME it is to see you over here?! I absolutely love your work, it means a lot to me personally. So happy to see you here. :)
 6 Haunted Days, we haven't been formally introduced though I've seen you elsewhere before :bl. I am honored to make your acquaintance and thank you for your warm welcome. I really appreciate your post :tt

nicole wrote: Nice to meet you :)

Nicole

PS- My ex husband is originally from Singapore .. don't miss him but I use miss his cooking :cl

It's a pleasure to meet you too, Nicole. Food and flavor is a major obsession over here :D and I think it can easily qualify as a favorite past-time. He must have been a real good cook :hp

goldenweb wrote: I think I've tried just about every art medium over the years, including different printmaking methods, and had periods of working intensively with quite a few. I still love experimenting, stepping outside the comfort/skill zone to see what happens, and pen & ink is particularly challenging, because the potential to take the drawing too far and ruin it (especially when working in a fairly loose style) is ever-present.  

The Pen Tarot began with an almost casual drawing that seemed to have something special and different about it, and developed from there. The breakthrough moment came with the idea of hands and their expressiveness, and adding colour to a small but significant part of the image.

Pen  

I agree, the set-back about using ink is that once there is a blotch, either I have to do a cover up or if that's impossible... its back from scratch. Its unforgiving in that sense where with pencil, I can always turn back and erase off the mistake.

I noticed with the Pen Tarot, you've made the b&w images stand out while bringing focus to certain aspects of the card by adding color to it. I think that requires a strong sense of aesthetics in that combining b&w and color, the artist has to balance both sides so one does not out-shine the other.

Also, what I found especially appealing is that you've used portrait style on the Majors yet captured the essence of the meaning through (as you've mentioned) their hands and expressiveness.

Features that I find hardest to draw are the hands and the eyes :f+ :v=:ww

 

 You guys have been wonderful and I really appreciate the warm welcome from all of you! :tt

 

Ash

 

Last edited on Wed Sep 3rd, 2008 06:14 pm by sacredashes

Back To Top

 Posted: Mon Sep 8th, 2008 04:41 pm
  PMQuoteReply
14th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
3 of Pentacles turned to ashes on 02/11/2009

Last edited on Sun Nov 2nd, 2008 09:22 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Sep 9th, 2008 02:02 pm
  PMQuoteReply
15th Post
goldenweb
Member


Joined: Sat Nov 17th, 2007
Location: Brighton, United Kingdom
Posts: 980
Status: 
Offline
shadow wrote: Some things have to be earned. Through dedication to the craft, she will hone her skills over time but not before.




Ash, that's so true. And here's another scintillating image, dark yet lovely, and such detail. You spoke of pencil earlier, yet on this scale it's very difficult to work out exactly what medium/media you're using - I'd love to know. And speaking of hands (I'm not sure anyone ever finds them easy), your young apprentice's look brilliant too.  

Pen

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Sep 9th, 2008 03:08 pm
  PMQuoteReply
16th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
goldenweb wrote: You spoke of pencil earlier, yet on this scale it's very difficult to work out exactly what medium/media you're using - I'd love to know. And speaking of hands (I'm not sure anyone ever finds them easy), your young apprentice's look brilliant too.  

Pen


I use graphite in HB, 6B, 8B and 9B although the last 3 don't really vary much in difference... to my naked eye at least :?.

Its in the sky mostly, I like using pencils to shade the clouds. White fluffy clouds against the black night sky is my favorite night scene, or a bright, bright moon hidden behind clouds so its presence is only hinted at by the glow it casts.

Discovered a trick some time back when I found out scanning my artwork turns the black ink red, I had to change it back to black and white through a software application. But by adjusting the contrast, white parts of the paper actually look like it glows!! :hp I remember going :ce 


Btw, I up-loaded bigger images... mind if we trade secrets, Pen? I was wondering what kind of medium do you use for color in your deck :D... good to know, in case I get brave and try experimenting too. It doesn't come out too strong so I'm guessing its watercolor... and watercolor takes a lot fo control. 

Ash

Last edited on Tue Sep 9th, 2008 03:13 pm by sacredashes

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Sep 9th, 2008 05:17 pm
  PMQuoteReply
17th Post
goldenweb
Member


Joined: Sat Nov 17th, 2007
Location: Brighton, United Kingdom
Posts: 980
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote:

Btw, I up-loaded bigger images... mind if we trade secrets, Pen? I was wondering what kind of medium do you use for color in your deck :D... good to know, in case I get brave and try experimenting too. It doesn't come out too strong so I'm guessing its watercolor... and watercolor takes a lot fo control. 

Ash



Thanks for the larger images Ash - its good to see more texture and details. I think it's that glow you spoke of (that comes with adjusting the contrast) that makes it difficult to work out the medium used, and adds an extra otherworldly (your imagination already supplies one!) dimension that makes your work so strangely arresting.   

Re. colour in the Pen, I used Caran D'Ache watercolour pencils - good for small areas, more tricky for larger ones. The Mystic Rubaiyat was watercolour with some texture added with the Caran D'Ache - they're great for texture. 

Pen

 

Last edited on Tue Sep 9th, 2008 06:32 pm by goldenweb

Back To Top

 Posted: Sun Sep 14th, 2008 03:23 am
  PMQuoteReply
18th Post
thorhammer
Member


Joined: Wed Sep 3rd, 2008
Location: Perth, Australia
Posts: 13
Status: 
Offline
Hi Ash :D I love the Three. She's beautiful, and doomed, and exalted all at once. There's a sense of time having stopped for her.

 

And the flowers at her feet remind me of this painting at a resort where my boyfriend and I stayed recently. It's in a restaurant which is named for the painting. It's huge - about 2m x 3m, of two hills coming together under a riot of flowers. The flowers are rendered in some weird paint that holds the most amazing structure and texture - some of them come off the canvas a good four or five inches!!

 

But the best part is when the restaurant staff see that you've really got an appreciation for the painting, and when it's quiet they'll turn off the regular lights and put the UV lights on it. The paint is specially UV reactive stuff, and suddenly it's the same scene at night . . . the sky is the most incredible thing I've ever seen. It's like you're there.

 

Restaurant is called Lago, if ya wanna look it up.

 

\m/ Kat

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Oct 7th, 2008 05:43 am
  PMQuoteReply
19th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
This 5 card spread was created by my mentor, Sandra A. Thomson (CTGM) and was sent to me in an e-mail recently to try out with the Diary deck. Of course it can be used with any other deck but since it was shared with me, I asked Sandra for permission to post it here and she has graciously agreed.

Rather than re-write what she sent, I thought I'd keep the content in its orginal form because I felt she kept the spread and instructions short and sharp.



...I came across a five-card spread I created several years ago regarding one’s relationship with food, but it could work with any situation.  Try it with your cards and see.  I will when I get them.


 


Position 1 – What’s going on


Position 2 – What’s at the base of it (hidden influences)


Position 3 – What’s not working


Position 4 – What Spirit wants me to know


Position 5 – Possible path to follow/possible activity to undertake


 


Spirit is the Andean concept that everything in the Universe is alive and is related to us.  It is similar to God, but certainly greater than. . .especially if one’s concept of God is a projection of a human-like figure who performs actions like judging, watching over, etc....

 While I can certainly see this spread being used for shadow readings, I do think it is not limited to such thus, I do hope that it is useful to those of you who wish to try it out with your favorite decks :hp

 

Ash

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 04:28 am
  PMQuoteReply
20th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
On the last day of the 8th moon; a prayer was sent out. I know not what I wrought, only that he came to me, shrouded in obscurity, asking for a face that he may have a wish granted; a meeting of souls longing for each other. He knew not where the other was; only that they wanted to be together. So I gave them both a face; the gentlemen rogue and his mistress... and now the wheel has turned once again.

I have been absent, in another place amongst long lost friends so news did not reach me as quickly as I wish it would. When I came back, I saw the Keeper (Page) of Cups and she spoke of treachery in Jahanam. It was I who brought it here and I begged for her to tell me more.

But as with all water creatures, she was in no hurry, indulging in the delight of withholding her little morsels of secret from me. (I wish I could :wwher...)

Instead she asked that I follow her. With long graceful strokes, she took to the waters and swam out into the open sea. It is not safe telling secrets in Jahanam, the army of the Storm under Lytta are everywhere but I knew where she was going... to the place where Lytta (Warrior of the Swords) feared the most.

Through waterways only the people of the water know about, she took me in circles until we came to... the lake where Lytta was once held captive by the Harvester (Warrior of the Cups); before he was freed by Samiri (Warrior of the Wands) with the help of Dajjal (Warrior of the Earth). Lytta would never step foot here and secrets are safe. There would be noone else listening if she told me what she knew.

:rr

Ash

 

 

Last edited on Tue Oct 28th, 2008 04:30 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 05:56 pm
  PMQuoteReply
21st Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
Ash, if ever you stop making art (which I certainly hope you won't, because it is gorgeous!), you can easily become a writer of mystery stories. This post got me all curious and in suspence... I want to know what comes next!!!:f

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Oct 28th, 2008 06:41 pm
  PMQuoteReply
22nd Post
ReikiAngel
Member


Joined: Sat Oct 25th, 2008
Location: Florida USA
Posts: 14
Status: 
Offline
I went to your website.  The cards are very beautiful.

You are a fantastic artist, tons of talent!!

Blessings,
Terri
:kt

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Nov 1st, 2008 04:21 pm
  PMQuoteReply
23rd Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
truelighth wrote: Ash, if ever you stop making art (which I certainly hope you won't, because it is gorgeous!), you can easily become a writer of mystery stories. This post got me all curious and in suspence... I want to know what comes next!!!:f

Its sinful in the real world but over here, anything goes :gi

ReikiAngel wrote: I went to your website.  The cards are very beautiful.

You are a fantastic artist, tons of talent!!

Blessings,
Terri
:kt

Terri, :bl thank you.. :ttare you sure you're ready for the roller coaster ride at Jahanam? All abord the Midnight Express!!!

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Nov 1st, 2008 04:49 pm
  PMQuoteReply
24th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
Keeper of Cups turned to ashes on 27.12.2008

Last edited on Sat Dec 27th, 2008 02:40 pm by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Nov 5th, 2008 06:17 am
  PMQuoteReply
25th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
Now that you have been appropriately shell-shocked into silence, let's take a look at Jananam without rose-tinted glasses, shall we?

Word Unit: lysso-, lyss-, lyssa-, lytta- (Greek: madness, fury, rage, frenzy; relationship to rabies).

Excerpts taken from a conversation:

Said Lytta to the Soothsayer: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gdbuk1k28G8&feature=related

Said the Soothsayer to Lytta: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-EK3CYUaW7M&feature=related

If I were to pick a face I would wear for all eternity, this would be it... 

Attachment: Knight of Swords1.jpg (Downloaded 318 times)

Last edited on Sat Dec 27th, 2008 02:44 pm by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Nov 5th, 2008 12:15 pm
  PMQuoteReply
26th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
I am speechless. What can you say about a revelation like that... love the card btw.. it is gorgeous as always. And Lytta is scary! Now I am off to see/listen to those conversations.

Last edited on Wed Nov 5th, 2008 12:16 pm by truelighth

Back To Top

 Posted: Sun Nov 9th, 2008 02:49 pm
  PMQuoteReply
27th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
Jahanam is reality told through characters of make-believe; to soften the harshness of the world as I see it but it is what is happening in real life.

But Keepers of Cups (Pages) appear when old wounds are not yet put to rest; it is not an Ace thus, this is not a new beginning. Just a new twist to something that has been festering under the covers.

The Empress, the Emperor and the Soothsayer are but pieces on the chessboard that is the game of life. They are people you and I would pass by on the streets, oblivious to what secrets they keep. For we all keep skeletons locked up in our own little closet with the keys buried deep in some remote area of our psyche... hoping to forget. 

Knowing my brethren's secret today may change how I see and feel about the person yet it was not my brethren who changed overnight. Perhaps it was I who changed because of my judgment onto him.

What is worth more than gold is what we learn about ourselves through our reactions and in Jahanam, the Keepers, Warriors, Guardians and Regents carry out their duties to ensure certain events happen; to facilitate that learning process (uncomfortable as they can be).. at least that is how I view them.

 

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Nov 29th, 2008 05:30 pm
  PMQuoteReply
28th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
8 of Swords

Sometimes I stand at the edge afraid to take the next step. So I search for answers hoping someone will come save me from this mess I created and all I hear is silence from above. Even the universe seem to have turned its back on me. 

Sometimes it feels like tears of blood stain my face and still I am blind to the signs even if they looked me in the eyes. And when that happens, ambiguity becomes a well acquainted friend.

It is in my darkest hour when it seems like I am no more than than a broken soul; and I wait for hope to break me free of these bonds. 

If I fear to take a step forward, perhaps it is because I cannot see where I am going. Perhaps what I need more than answers is to know that things are not alright but they won't last forever. The sun has to come out sometime, right?

So if I step too close to the edge, hold me back if I cannot see what lies before me for I need some time to be alright again.

Have you ever been to the edge of the world wishing you had the courage to grow wings? But we were never meant to fly, were we?

Listen to the sound of the agitated heart and know that everthing will be alright when the darkness passes you by.


**I couldn't resist... here....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1Ak9Dgdh1s

Ash

Attachment: 8 of Swords1.jpg (Downloaded 287 times)

Last edited on Sun Nov 30th, 2008 11:55 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Sun Nov 30th, 2008 01:15 pm
  PMQuoteReply
29th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
"Sometimes I stand at the edge afraid to take the next step."... so familiar and so true. This card is chillingly accurate. This happens to me on so many occasions, this feeling you describe I so recognize.  It is almost like you were reading my mind, Ash.

Anyway, love the new card, just because of this. You have just given the 8 of Swords a new dimension for me.

Back To Top

 Posted: Mon Dec 22nd, 2008 05:57 am
  PMQuoteReply
30th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
truelighth... I think it is not that I am reading your mind but that we have been to the same place before; just that I took a picture of it while I was there :hp

*************************************************************

Let me tell you about a gentleman I met recently; for it would have been my loss had he not introduced himself and shared his thoughts with me. Let's call him Mr. Blackhoneybear (because he wished to keep his identity a secret).

He asked about Jahanam; who these people were, the Jahanamians I write about in my posts.

I replied that they are people like you and me that I meet in reality; in cyberspace... everyone one of them are real in the flesh with a story to tell that is uniquely personal but in some way, all our stories resonate with the universal consciousness and perhaps that is what makes us relate to them and with each other.

We shared cyber bread (because we are from opposite ends of the world) and Mr. Blackhoneybear told me of his vision; the Book of Hope that was given to him for his keeping.

I will not speak of its contents for it is not mine to give; I was asked to give it a face but Mr. Blackhoneybear has given me permission to share the crystalized residue of his vision as long as he is shrouded by the shadows.

Though this image is not part of the Diary for it is a personal piece comissioned by a very insightful man; I wanted to share it with you for I am honored that he picked me to etch a tiny portion that was taken from his Book of Hope. The Diary is afterall, a journal compilation of people I have met on my way home.


Ash

Attachment: GB Wish card1.jpg (Downloaded 261 times)

Back To Top

 Posted: Thu Dec 25th, 2008 07:54 am
  PMQuoteReply
31st Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
Guardian of the Wands

When the gateway to Jahanam was open almost 2 years ago, it was a matter of time before the story ended. The journey through this land would have come to an halt many times over, if not for some people I've met along the way.

There are 24 cards left in the making; I anticipated when the Diary first came to life that it would either have been finished or abandoned long before this.

So near yet so far; I am reaching the last leg of the race and my reservoir is runing dry in a land that offers no water save for what I find along the way.

There was a time when the fireflies showed me what it means to fight till the very end; the 9 of Wands was a portrait taken of warriors who chose to take the last stand regardless of the outcome.

It was a time when Jahanam was being cleansed of burdens it can no longer sustain. The fireflies raged war across the land; determined to carry out their duties and they are almost done; the fire suit has 2 more cards to go before their story ends.

The Warrior Samiri in the 10; begins to understand the meaning of responsibility and he will make a good Regent because of it. The brotherhood will be disbanded when the time comes but until then, they will continue to raze Jahanam to the ground because it is required; for it to start anew.

The Page who is the Keeper of the Flames must shed her childlike naiveties; it is good to sheild and protect the flames from being extinguished but the power of the flame is useless when not put to use.

There is no guarantee that fire will not rage out of control; would it be better to burn out for to fade out? A question my poet friend asks often because he would choose to burn out; and so would I.

So I wish for the Keeper of the Flames to become the Guardian she was meant to be:

Fire!! Fire!! burning bright, fire that gives life to something else once it burns out; fire that lights up the night sky for miles around so those who have seen it in all its terrible glory would remember it forever. And the keeper who was once a flame burning from a candle will become the fiercest forest fire that would ensure growth is eminent once the flames die out.

For when the flames burn out, such brightness would never be seen again in a land grown dark and dusty; shadows of long forgotten memories.

 

Ash

Attachment: Queen of Wands1.jpg (Downloaded 285 times)

Last edited on Thu Dec 25th, 2008 07:55 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Jan 7th, 2009 04:46 pm
  PMQuoteReply
32nd Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
2 of Wands

:? 
2 of Wands

It has been a ritual of sorts since the start of the Diary; shadowland, shadow play; shadow works.

I believe that light can be drawn from darkness; The Fool card gave a glimpse of that possibility but it was a just that.. a possibility. Then came a man who showed me another way and in creating a wish card for him; the path opened up. No longer just a possibility, it can become a reality.

In the midst of drawing this card, I sent a random e-mail to a foundation. I'm not sure what I was looking for; perhaps just a sign but instead I got an automated reply; one of those impersonal messages that indicated I was one of the thousands of nameless, faceless people sending out mails to them.

But the next day, I got an answer from someone working in that foundation; short and to the point but it was sincere. So I sent another e-mail but this time, the reply came with a name. What I appreciated was the insight; but I got the sign I was looking for in both his answer and his name.

How can light be drawn from darkness? It can and vice versa since both are from the same source. This is the first image where black ink created sunlight in Jahanam; through the trees, do you see? Do you see how the branches reaching up to the light is part of the same tree that has roots delving deep into the womb of the earth in search of water? Immersed in both yet the same tree nonetheless.

I've decided to name this card after the person who was moved by the Universe in answer to my question... WILL; for will-power; the will to change; the will to try; the will to do all the things that fear stops us from doing.

It's a number 2... there is no guarentee of success. We'll only know if we walk the path ahead BUT we are the Magician; we have all the tools we need.

 

Ash

**The door to the Fire realm in Jahanam will be closed from now on; there is one card left to do but I'm hiding one card from all the suits :ce


 

Attachment: 2 of Wands1.jpg (Downloaded 264 times)

Last edited on Wed Jan 7th, 2009 04:52 pm by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Thu Jan 8th, 2009 04:51 am
  PMQuoteReply
33rd Post
nicole
Member


Joined: Sun Jan 6th, 2008
Location: Chicagoland, Illinois USA
Posts: 779
Status: 
Offline
shadow wrote: **The door to the Fire realm in Jahanam will be closed from now on; there is one card left to do but I'm hiding one card from all the suits :ce


 

evil tease ;)

Back To Top

 Posted: Thu Jan 8th, 2009 08:15 pm
  PMQuoteReply
34th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
Wonderful card again, Ash! The light that shines through the trees, it is so real. It also looks so tranquil. Reminds me of walking in the forest, all alone, with just the nature and the light and darkness. I love it! :ok

 

And ohhh.. what a tease indeed. Keeping one card of each suit behind. Snif, snif! I want to see them all!!!!:n

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Jan 24th, 2009 06:01 am
  PMQuoteReply
35th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
nicole wrote: evil tease ;)


:cs...:hp

truelighth wrote: Wonderful card again, Ash! The light that shines through the trees, it is so real. It also looks so tranquil. Reminds me of walking in the forest, all alone, with just the nature and the light and darkness. I love it! :ok

 

And ohhh.. what a tease indeed. Keeping one card of each suit behind. Snif, snif! I want to see them all!!!!:n
:kt aahhh.. but you will, truelighth... when the entire deck is finish. all in good time, my friend. :ro

 

Ash

Last edited on Sat Jan 24th, 2009 06:01 am by sacredashes

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Jan 24th, 2009 06:43 am
  PMQuoteReply
36th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
5 of Cups

The halfing is deep in thought; should she go after the fallen cups or not?

:ZThe river is wild and her hooves weren't made for swimming.

What would the others say if they knew she lost 3 of them? :ee

:nSo she gathered up her skirt though she is reluctant to step into the river for she knows she cannot swim; and if the water people came, they would pull her into their watery realm and there is no coming back. :f

Ooohhh, the drama!! :xWell, have no fear, Dajjal is here!

Dajjal is the hedonistic Warrior of the Earth, hero to the earth-bound creatures and he told her to come away from the edge... for the cups were lost the moment they fell into the river. Besides, her dress is tattered enough; the river would certainly not improve what's left of her rags... :vPlease excuse him, for the tactless, insensitive remark and for the deviation.

Now, where was he? Ah, yes..

He said that remorse is a complicated thing and it is made-up of so many components that they blur the mind to the past and the present. We become confused between "what was done that cannot be changed" and "what is not yet done". 

The cups are already swept away by the currents into the past. She cannot go back. Drowning in the process... well, that seems futile and quite counter-productive, doesn't it? :qq

:rr"Is there another way?" he asked the halfling. 

 

Ash 

 

 

 

Attachment: 5 of Cups1.jpg (Downloaded 248 times)

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Jan 24th, 2009 11:36 am
  PMQuoteReply
37th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
sacredashes wrote:

truelighth wrote:
And ohhh.. what a tease indeed. Keeping one card of each suit behind. Snif, snif! I want to see them all!!!!:n
:kt aahhh.. but you will, truelighth... when the entire deck is finish. all in good time, my friend. :ro



 

Ok, that does make me feel better. Knowing I will actually see them all one day. Do you already have any idea of publishing/printing the entire deck? Because I will be FIRST in line !!! :cl

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Jan 24th, 2009 11:41 am
  PMQuoteReply
38th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
shadow wrote:
He said that remorse is a complicated thing and it is made-up of so many components that they blur the mind to the past and the present. We become confused between "what was done that cannot be changed" and "what is not yet done". 


OMG, I should print this out and hang it above my bed or something! To remind me of this truth. I so often forget :fand then get hung up in remorse :cc!

Anyway, great new card! Lovely art and wonderful write-up again! :ok

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Jan 27th, 2009 06:36 am
  PMQuoteReply
39th Post
sacredashes
Member


Joined: Fri Aug 29th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 119
Status: 
Offline
truelighth wrote: I so often forget :fand then get hung up in remorse :cc!

Anyway, great new card! Lovely art and wonderful write-up again! :ok

Sometimes its good to know that we're not alone.. not in the "Misery loves company" sort of way but more like "I understand how you feel" sort of way... :bl Sometimes, it helps just to know that someone understands how it feels.

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Jan 27th, 2009 06:56 am
  PMQuoteReply
40th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
4 of Coins

While the site was down, I posted this elsewhere:

This day, we enter the year of the Earth Ox.

On the 18th night of the 1st Moon; we had an early celebration of the coming year of the Ox. I travelled back to my hometown for an early reunion dinner.

It is a savage land but there are wonderful things about that place that I love as well. It is a wild place filled with dangers for the people can be both warm and kind yet too many are brutal and unruly... but I digress.

My family and I, we feasted under the stars that night. There was food, wine, laughter and so much warmth; for the moment all our worries were put aside.

As the night wore on, something got into my eye and I blinked. That was when I saw her... not human.

They do not show themselves to me unless they wish to be given a face. But for my own peace of mind, I turned to ask my sister (the one named after a Night Flower) if she saw anything out of the ordinary.

My gift lies not in seeing entities unless they wish to be seen but the Night Flower has the gift to enter the other realm at will and she sees things that do not appear to the naked eye. "Yes", she said, "we are being watched". I asked her what she saw and she described my vision back to me; down to the last detail.

Let me show you what we both saw; for my gift (I think) is to give a face to those who do not dwell within an earthen shell like we do.

I was in the midst of completing the 5 of Cups, but this entity I saw... she insisted that she be given a face ... SOON; so I started on her immediately. She was most insistant and though I do not understand her urgency, I had to get her out of my head.

This being was perched on the tree outside our home, a black shadow. I sensed no malice from her nor did my sister but this being, she stayed all night watching us as we celebrated. She cannot enter our domain, trapped in her own. Was she lonely? I don't know... perhaps it is isolating being trapped in a place one cannot leave or chooses not to leave.

Perhaps it is a boundary she cannot escape. I do not know the rules by which they live by but I asked that she leave me in peace once the image is done for my sister told me that if I feel the dampening of my spirits... draw the line and back off for they sometimes get desperate and they cling on.

So I gave her 4 coins for 2 reasons; a token to leave me alone once the deed is done AND; a challenge to those do not believe, I dare you to try take it from her and see what she will do though I personally suggest the path less foolhardy.

The piece is completed (in record time too ), I wish this being a Good Journey, travel well and be at peace.

Though I do not expect you to believe me, it makes no difference. For I may proclaim that the wind does not exist simply because I cannot see it; but my proclaimation does not make it any less real.


Now you know what led to this card. I also sent a copy of the image to my sister, the one named after the Night Flower so she could see. The reply I received reflects the person that she is... compassionate and tolerant for all beings created by the Universe... God.. or whatever term you wish to call it by. She is loving, generous and like her sun sign Leo, she is someone with a BIG, BIG heart.

I would like to share it with you, an excerpt of her reply:

"Dear sis,
 
The position and dressing  is exactly like that but i normally cannot see the actual face. "They" normally do not let me see their faces unless they are desparate to tell me something or when i request them to show me. We need to respect them as they are actually lost souls and they do not know that. they think we are the visitors and we think they are visitors. So ...which is which.... but i realise that we must make the fullest of what god gave us , appreciate life and relationships among each other as we will not know tomorrow...I pray that when god brings me to heaven, i will tell myself  to let go and not hold back if anything happens to me."...  


The Night Flower humbled me with her words, and I wanted to share them for they apply not only to "other beings" but to us as individuals. She is not a tarot reader but I felt her message explains the card in a whole new way for me. 
 
4 coins... what does this card means to me now is not what it meant to me before.
 

Attachment: 4 of Pentacles1.jpg (Downloaded 238 times)

Last edited on Tue Jan 27th, 2009 07:14 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Feb 6th, 2009 12:27 pm
  PMQuoteReply
41st Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
There will come a time when one needs to grow up. It is an initiation to shed innocence for hard won maturity. It is a rite of passage, it is time to move on.

This stage offers both death and birth. If we see one and not the other, it is our perception that brings joy or grief. 

Do you see the crow of ill omen or the coin to be obtained from the experience?   





 


Attachment: Page of Pentacles1.jpg (Downloaded 223 times)

Last edited on Fri Feb 6th, 2009 12:48 pm by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Tue Feb 10th, 2009 01:21 pm
  PMQuoteReply
42nd Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
The one who stole Dajjal's eye wears it on his palm; we are entering the land of the One Eyed God.

I asked my guide if its possible; instead of the gifts he offers... the token of wealth and clarity of thought; would it be possible to trade those for a song instead, to lull the Guardian of the Flames to sleep? For the Harvester awaits with his wards at the edge of heaven's gate to weep over a land parched and smouldering from her touch.

He ponders over the offer; a smile spreading over his face. Is that an agreement or no? :qqHarvester... HURRY!

Ash


Editted to add: I know what he's smiling about now... :v 

Attachment: 2 of Pentacles1.jpg (Downloaded 211 times)

Last edited on Sat Feb 14th, 2009 09:41 am by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Feb 28th, 2009 07:35 pm
  PMQuoteReply
43rd Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
7 of Pentacles

**This is about a recent boo-boo so ... naysayers be gone. No nagging, please.**

The day before Valentine's, I made an Ouija board. With my own bare hands I crafted one from scratch and tried to use it. There was an entity that has been playing peek-a-boo with me for weeks, I just could not figure out what it was trying to say :cc...

Still there was no answer, the coin did not move.. nothing moved except for my paranoia barometer. That went off the chart for days! I can't speak wraith language but I can see pretty funky stuff in my head and what I saw sent chills down my spine... I had to send for reinforcements. By that I mean someone born with the gift to speak wraith language. 

When the image was completed, I asked a Piscean to give her a name and he chose Kalista. The funny thing about names; I looked this up too and found the meaning to be "most beautiful". How appropriate.

What does it have to do with the 7 Coins, you ask? Everything. Its about change, cutting losses and about making hard, realistic decisions.

The wraith could not move on; she could not let go of things that held her back and it changed her into something else. She become frightening but still, she would not leave the past behind. She wanted everything to be as it was before but that was not possible either.

Someone once told me that money does not fall from the sky but blessing do. Once our attachments to the material becomes a prison we've created for ourselves, it becomes the Midas touch. Our heart's desire turned against us, it is a perversion of the soul.

So I drew her face and made her beautiful once more but the curse of Midas touch remains as long as she will not let go of her attachments to the material realm. Linger in limbo or move on; when everything she ever wanted is right here... but the wraith is human no more. High up in the Highlands where this wraith resides, I hope she is pleased. 


 

Ash

Attachment: 7 of Pentacles1.jpg (Downloaded 200 times)

Back To Top

 Posted: Wed Mar 4th, 2009 09:17 am
  PMQuoteReply
44th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
:qqMy Diary is versatile even if my methods are not.

:mWould it be so evil, if I took the tarot and used it for something else? 

Would it be so wrong, if :c drove me to commit acts of utter sacriledge against my own creation?

:xNo.. I think not... I am merely a storyteller using the tools in my hands to convey messages. Since witch-hunts were outlawed centuries ago....  can't :ww me for this...  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MKJM_4ldKMM

 

:ceAsh

 

 

  

 

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Mar 6th, 2009 06:56 pm
  PMQuoteReply
45th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
Ace of Cups

Ironic, isn't it that the Ace of Cups lacks a cup?

The decorated vessel is nowhere to be seen in the midst of churning waves.  Such a shame... I think the cup was swept away when the swell picked up and when reveling in such power.. it is easy not to care.

Between the devil and the deep blue sea...
 
This is how it is when water sweeps one of the ground; knocking the world askew. Fluid, formidable, hypnotic... its mercurial power leaves one drowning in its depths.

But the Scorpio Moon was born to ride the raging waves; surfing alongside the Harvester, racing serpants of forgotten lore beneath the endless sky.

 

Attachment: Ace of Cups1.jpg (Downloaded 180 times)

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Mar 6th, 2009 08:35 pm
  PMQuoteReply
46th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
Oh, I like how the waves seem to turn into dragons or serpents. Very nice. And is that a face I see in the upper-right corner?

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Mar 6th, 2009 09:38 pm
  PMQuoteReply
47th Post
nicole
Member


Joined: Sun Jan 6th, 2008
Location: Chicagoland, Illinois USA
Posts: 779
Status: 
Offline
Beautiful and scary ... just like the men I used to be attacted to LOL


You rock Ash !!!

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Mar 13th, 2009 02:37 pm
  PMQuoteReply
48th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
:ce:ce:cetruelight:ce:ce:cenicole:ce:ce:ce

Weird!!.. I thought I posted something here.. could have sworn I did... but it never showed...:mwas I imagining things? 

********************************************************

10 of Pentacles

I imagine this is what it must be like;
Watching the highlights of one's life;
If we lived our lives as if we were looking back at it;
If we knew how we our actions would haunt us;
We may save ourselves a lot of heartache and anguish;
We may have less regrets and more joy;
We may not turn out to be such a pain in the a**;

We may even like ourselves a little bit more.

*****************************************************

Off topic altogether but this is the inspiration behind the card. I did a wishcard for someone recently and that image was very powerful; imo anyways.

A few weeks ago, I posted that image with a poem I wrote at deviantart and I called it Requiem for Jahanam.

A song for the man looking back at his youth.

For the child who abandoned his innocence for the world;
And the world that paved a way laid out with glittering gold;
"Step out of the woods", said the Lord of the World,
"and I will give you your heart's desire. Love me and I will reciprocate; serve me and you will be rewarded."

The child hesitates; for his heart is torn between freedom in the wild and the comfort of silken sheets;
But child will abandon his innocence for the world;
A feather in his hand is no match for the riches in all the land.

Then one day when the child looks back;
He will yearn for bygone days when he wore not the yoke of slavery around his neck;
He will recall a time long, long ago when he bore not the burden of the world upon his back;
And lying alone in his silken sheets he will hear the song of the woods;
A song that is the requiem for Jahanam.

 
 
:nI can't have that piece in the Diary unfortunately, so I made a new one.

Attachment: 10 of Pentacles1.jpg (Downloaded 162 times)

Last edited on Fri Mar 13th, 2009 02:44 pm by shadow

Back To Top

 Posted: Sat Mar 14th, 2009 01:25 pm
  PMQuoteReply
49th Post
truelighth
Member


Joined: Tue Oct 9th, 2007
Location:  
Posts: 1066
Status: 
Offline
I just commented on this card on AT. But reading the extra information behind the creation and the requiem for Jahanam, I want to say something here too. What the requiem says, is exactly what I see in the card! It is really giving me chills, but good chills, because it is so beautiful and so true! I absolutely love it. And oh, how I sometimes wish I could go back and change things too! I know the feeling!

Anyway, wonderful work again Ash!:tt

Back To Top

 Posted: Fri Mar 27th, 2009 07:59 pm
  PMQuoteReply
50th Post
shadow
Member


Joined: Sun Jun 8th, 2008
Location: Singapore
Posts: 88
Status: 
Offline
turelighth...:tt

 

**************************************

This was an idea that was supposed to end up in the collaboration deck.. but the tigers were begging to be in this one. Then Tony Jaa's alter ego did his funky Muay Thai moves to convince me they belonged in Jahanam... I had to comply.

This card is hard for me to explain. When we are broken; its hard to feel anything else but the pain but broken bones do not mean a broken spirit. Its hard to pay attention to blessings when conflict looms large around us, demanding urgent attention.

This card came at a time when I am reminded that the flow of energy; abundance and blessings the universe has to offer is enough to go around even when it does not appear so.   

 

 

 

Attachment: 4 of Cups1.jpg (Downloaded 148 times)

Back To Top


 Current time is 08:45 am
Page:    1  2  3  Next Page Last Page  

Tarot Collectors Forum > Main Discussion Area > Decks in Progress > Excerpts taken from the diary of a broken soul
Top



UltraBB 1.17 Copyright © 2007-2011 Data 1 Systems